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B1 Prüfung Day! 27.10.17

Als ich nach Deutschland umgezogen bin, suchte ich einen Deutschkurs. Schon der erste Tag ist mir in guter Erinnerung geblieben. Ich bin sehr happy, dass ich diese Leute aus der ganze Welt kannte.

Wir kommen aus verschiedenen Ländern, Kulturen & Berufen und sprechen keine gleiche Sprache, nur Deutsch, die wir noch lernen muss. Aber wir unterhalten uns sehr gut, am besten mit Körperliche Sprache! Wir haben viel Spaß gemacht, viel gelacht, viel Bier getrunken und viel gelernt. Und jetzt sind wir bereit für unsere Prüfung!

Vor 7 Monaten habe ich sie kennengelernt und seitdem sind wir gute Freunde geworden. Sie sind nicht nur meine Klassenkameraden, sondern auch meine allererste Familie hier in Deutschland. Wie mein Lehrer hat es gesagt: DIE BESTE KURSGRUPPE ALLEZEIT! 

Ich erinnere mich, dass ich eigentlich für es betet. Gute Menschen kennenzulernen und Sympathische Lehrer, die sehr gute beibringen, zu haben. Ehrlich gesagt, mein Anfang hier in Deutschland war nicht leicht. Ich hatte keine Freunde, außerdem konnte ich kein Deutsch. Aber jetzt bin ich nicht mehr alleine die ganze Deutschland und der Zukunft zu entdecken. Wir sind immer zusammen und helfen uns einander, wie eine Familie. Und zwar, es ist ein Traum, der wahr wird.

(PS. Bitte verziehen Sie meine Grammatik! Ich habe es versucht, ohne Google Translate der zu schreiben. Danke )

Birth

Dream Come True: Plitvice Lakes, Croatia 30.06.2017

This post is meant for my Birthday which lies in the middle of the year. 

However, Five months down the road and I have never felt this lost or directionless. The immediate concerns that pop-up are: One - I don't have a job which leads to number Two - I don't receive income. But matters with money don't really matter. I've been holding up with the challenges I'm going through to focus on the obstacles before me. However, I am only human and week after week, I just overcome a puddle of emotions after the other. I've lost and been defeated. It's tragic. It probably is the so-called "Quarter-life Crisis" or whatever. Then this makes it my Second and even harder one.  I've reflected back and realized that I've never stayed too long in one place, job or country. For the last 3 years I've moved from Manila to Dubai, to Doha and now currently in Hamburg. I've had 4 different jobs, one of which included flipping burgers at McDonald's. It's been one helluva ride. 

BUT I also can't deny to myself that coming here is actually a dream come true. For the years I was growing up, I always wondered when would we ever get to come back? Hence, this. I've always wanted to speak more languages and infuse the German language back into my system hence, I ended up with Goethe and Berlitz in my search engines. Every year it was included in my Bucketlist to - learn a new language! Sometimes I think that our beautiful Universe is playing tricks on me and says "Isn't this what you wanted?" And she did give me what I wanted, but probably in a way I never thought it would. So if there is one crucial thing I've learned thus far is to - be careful what you wish for (coz you just might get it). 

Inspiration is everywhere! And I need not to go far when my favourite Kim Jones' shared her inspiring talk here in Morocco. Her topic: Passion. As timely as it is, I am personally facing suffering. We all do. I suffer the consequences of my passions and actions. I suffer being away from my family and everything that I love. When you are passionate about something, you have to suffer for it. But why? Shouldn't what your passionate about make you happy? And it's explained in a very simple lexicon. Because you see - passion in Latin is actually to suffer, to bear. We have to endure despite of unhappiness, fear or pain. No matter how contrasting these ideals are, they always go together. It's a process. From a personal experience - A goal, a dream or a destination bears no meaning without being born. We must suffer for passion. Passion is in the Pursuit.

I do enjoy my Deutschkurs which is running until November. (After which, don't ask me what I'll be doing) It's challenging and could sometimes get intimidating to talk. But with that, I am at the same time making new friends, re-discovering a City I used to live in and re-learning a Speech I used to speak. It has been so far a beautiful experience learning a language and actually living it. And who knows, I might write texts auf Deutsch here soon!

There are times when I want to go back to the days when I was just dreaming and only starting to chase after them. I want to believe that this is a time of re-birth. A time of starting all over again. I'm on the verge of discovering what happens after the dream. What happens after making a dream come true? Then I remember through one of my favourite Disney movies, thanks to Flynn Rider who advised: Well, that's the good part, I guess. You get to go find a new dream.

Como

...And we took off early to Lago Di Como jumping off of trains and enjoying the view is already THE adventure itself. Our journey brought us to a little town tucked away from the city. Como is a small Province just a few minutes outside of Milan which borders the Swiss Alps and is home to the village of Bellagio. The weather was cold and foggy and the cobble-stoned streets were almost covered with fallen autumn leaves, which set the tone to this quaint town. The atmosphere that surrounded us took our breaths away! The lake docked with little boats and the hillside bestrewn with colourful houses and bistros felt like a dream come true. But, our adventure didn’t end there as we took the funicolare up the mountain to Brunate. Must we hold our breaths or take it all in?! We were viewing life from the top in all its stillness. Cue in: What a wonderful world! I felt so far away from troubles, worries and sufferings which are present in the same world we’re living in. For the first time in a long time, I had been still… 

Our little daytrip-turned-into-adventure was both a spiritual and gastronomical experience, as we didn’t leave the town without a taste of gnocchi pasta and hazelnut gelato by the lake. I would travel back all the way here just to have a bite of that again. Now, as I am writing this, I am on a completely new journey. Unprepared but moving on. Unsure but trusting the path. I believe this is a chance to fulfill my other dreams now. I just pray to God that no matter how far I go, how lost I’ll be, or how broken I can get, He’s with me on this adventure. Because He has said, “ I know the plans I have for you…”